Showing posts with label gothic. Show all posts
Showing posts with label gothic. Show all posts

Wednesday, 27 February 2013

Bird Skulls and Glitter

Oh my, has it been two weeks already? I apologise. I am sick in bed with a bronchitis right now which isn't really an exciting topic to write about, especially as I don't really get out of the house. I still don't have much to tell but not writing anything in this blog for such a long time feels almost like abandoning a friend.

One thing I can tell you about is my newest craft project. In the beginning of January I ordered some pendants for a jewellery set I intend to make. A few days ago they finally arrived:




They are metal bird skulls, yay! I know, that's a pretty stereotypical motive but I like the irony of wearing animal skulls as a vegan. I intend to make a necklace, earrings, a brooch and a bracelet in order to have a complete set. I knoooow, the big skull looks a bit phallic, but I'm sure I can make it look good anyway. I'm hoping to be able to goth up my outfits with these pieces, I have the feeling that I dress rather boring at the moment...

Something I am looking forward to a lot is my birthday. On the 15th of March (Caesar's death day) I am turning 22 and I am going to celebrate it with a motto party. My friends hate me for my party mottos, but it is my birthday and to quote Loki: I do what I want!
This year's motto is Glitter and Fairydust, everyone has to glitter-up, it is going be awesome!

I promise that I will blog on a more regular basis from now on, I really just didn't have much to say.

Have a great day!
The Countess

Saturday, 21 July 2012

My mother, what is happiness? My mother, what is Hell?

Everyone knows The Raven by Edgar Allen Poe but only a
few people know that the lost Lenore in the poem is an allusion
to the poem Lenore by the German author Gottfried August 
Bürger from 1774. 
 
It deals with a young woman who commits blasphemy when 
her lover does not come back from the 7 years war and as a 
punishment said woman is being taken to the world of the
dead by her dead lover. So much the common interpretations.
I personally read it a little different:
I would like to see the ride through the night to her death bed 
as a metaphor for her suicide because Lenore does not want
to live without her lover. 
But read for yourself: 
 
 
Up rose Lenore as the red morn wore, 
From weary visions starting; 
"Art faithless, William, or William, art dead? 
'Tis long since thy departing." 
For he, with Frederick's men of might, 
In fair Prague waged the uncertain fight;
Nor once had he writ in the hurry of war. 
And sad was the true heart that sickened afar. 
 
The Empress and the King, 
With ceaseless quarrel tired, 
At length relaxed the stubborn hate 
Which rivalry inspired;
And the martial throng, with laugh and song, 
Spoke of their homes as they rode along. 
And clank, clank, clank ! came every rank. 
With the trumpet-sound that rose and sank. 

And here and there and everywhere. 
Along the swarming ways. 
Went old man and boy, with the music of joy. 
On the gallant bands to gaze; 
And the young child shouted to spy the vaward, 
And trembling and blushing the bride pressed forward; 
But ah! for the sweet lips of Lenore 
The kiss and the greeting are vanished and o'er. 
 
From man to man all wildly she ran 
With a swift and searching eye; 
But she felt alone in the mighty mass, 
As it crushed and crowded by; 
On hurried the troop, — a gladsome group, — 
And proudly the tall plumes wave and droop;
She tore her hair and she turned her round, 
And madly she dashed her against the ground. 

Her mother clasped her tenderly 
With soothing words and mild;
"My child, may God look down on thee, — 
God comfort thee, my child." 
"Oh! mother, mother! gone is gone! 
I reck no more how the world runs on;
What pity to me does God impart? 
Woe, woe, woe! for my heavy heart!" 
 
"Help, Heaven, help and favour her! 
Child, utter an Ave Marie! 
Wise and great are the doings of God; 
He loves and pities thee." 
"Out, mother, out, on the empty lie! 
Doth he heed my despair, — doth he list to my cry? 
What boots it now to hope or to pray? 
The night is come, — there is no more day." 

"Help, Heaven, help! who knows the Father 
Knows surely that he loves his child;
The bread and the wine from the hand divine 
Shall make thy tempered grief less wild." 
"Oh! mother, dear mother! the wine and the bread 
Will not soften the anguish that bows down my head; 
For bread and for wine it will yet be as late 
That his cold corpse creeps from the grim grave's gate." 
 
"What if the traitor's false faith failed, 
By sweet temptation tried, — 
What if in distant Hungary 
He clasp another bride? — 
Despise the fickle fool, my girl, 
Who hath ta'en the pebble and spurned the pearl;
While soul and body shall hold together 
In his perjured heart shall be stormy weather." 

"Oh! mother, mother! gone is gone, 
And lost will still be lost! 
Death, death is the goal of my weary soul, 
Crushed and broken and crost. 
Spark of my life! down, down to the tomb; 
Die away in the night, die away in the gloom! 
What pity to me does God impart? 
Woe, woe, woe! for my heavy heart!" 
 
 
"Help, Heaven, help, and heed her not, 
For her sorrows are strong within; 
She knows not the words that her tongue repeats, — 
Oh! count them not for sin! 
Cease, cease, my child, thy wretchedness, 
And think on the promised happiness; 
So shall thy mind's calm ecstasy 
Be a hope and a home and a bridegroom to thee." 
 
"My mother, what is happiness? 
My mother, what is Hell? 
With William is my happiness, — 
Without him is my Hell! 
Spark of my life! down, down to the tomb;
Die away in the night, die away in the gloom! 
Earth and Heaven, and Heaven and earth. 
Reft of William are nothing worth." 
 
Thus grief racked and tore the breast of Lenore, 
And was busy at her brain; 
Thus rose her cry to the Power on high, 
To question and arraign;
Wringing her hands and beating her breast, — 
Tossing and rocking without any rest; — 
Till from her light veil the moon shone thro', 
And the stars leapt out on the darkling blue. 

But hark to the clatter and the pat pat patter!
Of a horse's heavy hoof! 
How the steel clanks and rings as the rider springs! 

How the echo shouts aloof! 
While slightly and lightly the gentle bell 
Tingles and jingles softly and well; 
And low and clear through the door plank thin 
Comes the voice without to the ear within; 
 
"Holla! holla! unlock the gate; 
Art wakenig, my bride, or sleeping ? 
Is thy heart still free and still faithful to me? 
Art laughing, my bride, or weeping?" 
"Oh! wearily, William, I've waited for you,— 
Woefully watching the long day thro', — 
With a great sorrow sorrowing 
For the cruelty of your tarrying." 

"Till the dead midnight we saddled not,— 
I have journeyed far and fast — 
And hither I come to carry thee back 
Ere the darkness shall be past." 
"Ah! rest thee within till the night's more calm; 
Smooth shall thy couch be, and soft, and warm; 
Hark to the winds, how they whistle and rush 
Thro' the twisted twine of the hawthorn-bush." 
 
"Thro' the hawthorn-bush let whistle and rush, — 
Let whistle, child, let whistle! 
Mark the flash fierce and high of my steed's bright eye, 
And his proud crest's eager bristle. 
Up, up and away! I must not stay;
Mount swiftly behind me! up, up and away! 
An hundred miles must be ridden and sped 
Ere we may lie down in the bridal-bed." 

"What! ride an hundred miles to-night, 
By thy mad fancies driven! 
Dost hear the bell with its sullen swell. 
As it rumbles out eleven?" 
"Look forth! look forth! the moon shines bright; 
We and the dead gallop fast thro' the night. 
'Tis for a wager I bear thee away 
To the nuptial couch ere break of day." 
 
"Ah! where is the chamber, William dear, 
And William, where is the bed?" 
"Far, far from here; still, narrow, and cool; 
Plank and bottom and lid." 
"Hast room for me?" — "For me and thee; 
Up, up to the saddle right speedily! 
The wedding-guests are gathered and met, 
And the door of the chamber is open set." 

She busked her well, and into the selle 
She sprang with nimble haste, — 
And gently smiling, with a sweet beguiling,
Her white hands clasped his waist; — 
And hurry, hurry! ring, ring, ring! 
To and fro they sway and swing; 
Snorting and snuffing they skim the ground, 
And the sparks spurt up, and the stones run round. 
 
Here to the right and there to the left 
Flew fields of corn and clover, 
And the bridges flashed by to the dazzled eye, 
As rattling they thundered over. 
"What ails my love? the moon shines bright;
Bravely the dead men ride through the night. 
Is my love afraid of the quiet dead?" 
"Ah! no;— let them sleep in their dusty bed!" 
 
On the breeze cool and soft what tune floats aloft,
While the crows wheel overhead? -
Ding dong! ding dong! 'tis the sound, 'tis the song, -
"Room, room for the passing dead!"
Slowly the funeral-train drew near,
Bearing the coffin, bearing the bier;
And the chime of their chant was hissing and harsh,
Like the note of the bull-frog within the marsh.

"You bury your corpse at the dark midnight,
With hymns and bells and wailing; -
But I bring home my youthful wife
To a bride-feast's rich regaling.
Come, chorister, come with thy choral throng,
And solemnly sing me a marriage-song;
Come, friar, come, - let the blessing be spoken,
That the bride and the bridegroom's sweet rest be unbroken."

Died the dirge and vanished the bier: -
Obedient to his call,
Hard hard behind, with a rush like the wind,
Came the long steps' pattering fall;
And ever further! ring, ring, ring!
To and fro they sway and swing;
Snorting and snuffing they skim the ground,
And the sparks spurt up, and the stones run round.

How flew to the right, how flew to the left,
Trees, mountains in the race!
How to the left, and the right and the left,
Flew town and market-place!
"What ails my love? the moon shines bright;
Bravely the dead men ride thro' the night.
Is my love afraid of the quiet dead?"
"Ah! let them alone in their dusty bed!"

See, see, see! by the gallows-tree,
As they dance on the wheel's broad hoop,
Up and down, in the gleam of the moon
Half lost, an airy group: -
"Ho, ho! mad mob, come hither amain,
And join in the wake of my rushing train; -
Come, dance me a dance, ye dancers thin,
Ere the planks of the marriage bed close us in."

And hush, hush, hush! the dreamy rout
Came close with a ghastly bustle,
Like the whirlwind in the hazel-bush,
When it makes the dry leaves rustle;
And faster, faster! ring, ring, ring!
To and fro they sway and swing;
Snorting and snuffing they skim the ground,
And the sparks spurt up, and the stones run round.

How flew the moon high overhead,
In the wild race madly driven!
In and out, how the stars danced about,
And reeled o'er the flashing heaven!
"What ails my love? the moon shines bright;
Bravely the dead men ride thro' the night.
Is my love afraid of the quiet dead?"
"Alas! let them alone in their dusty bed!"

"Horse, horse! meseems 'tis the cock's shrill note,
And the sand is well nigh spent;
Horse, horse, away! 'tis the break of day, -
'Tis the morning air's sweet scent.
Finished, finished is our ride:
Room, room for the bridegroom and the bride!
At last, at last, we have reached the spot,
For the speed of the dead man has slackened not!"

And swiftly up to an iron gate
With reins relaxed they went;
At the rider's touch the bolts flew back,
And the bars were broken and bent;
The doors were burst with a deafening knell,
And over the white graves they dashed pell mell:
The tombs around looked grassy and grim,
As they glimmered and glanced in the moonlight dim.

But see! But see! in an eyelid's beat,
Towhoo! a ghastly wonder!
The horseman's jerkin, piece by piece,
Dropped off like brittle tinder!
Fleshless and hairless, a naked skull,
The sight of his weird head was horrible;
The lifelike mask was there no more,
And a scythe and a sandglass the skeleton bore.

Loud snorted the horse as he plunged and reared,
And the sparks were scattered round; -
What man shall say if he vanished away,
Or sank in the gaping ground?
Groans from the earth and shrieks in the air!
Howling and wailing everywhere!
Half dead, half living, the soul of Lenore
Fought as it never had fought before.

The churchyard troop, - a ghostly group, -
Close round the dying girl;
Out and in they hurry and spin
Through the dancer's weary whirl;
"Patience, patience, when the heart is breaking;
With thy God there is no question-making;
Of thy body thou art quit and free;
Heaven keep thy soul eternally!" 
 
 Source


What is your interpretation of Lenore and her death?
How did you like the poem? of course, this is merely a
translation, I like the German original better.

Have a great day,
The Countess

Tuesday, 19 June 2012

Gothic vs. Feminism

I don't wear trousers. I don't show much skin. I wear my hair in braided buns. I love corsets. That sounds pretty much like the perfect victorian lady, right? Wrong. I have one "flaw" that would be considered unbelievably improper for a young modest victorian woman: I am a feminist. And normally I like to let my style reflect my political and social views (Hello, bag coverd in political badges!) because to me your style is the mirror to your soul. 

The problem is: My soul isn't the one of a nice and polite victorian housewife; it's the soul of a loud, independent, intelligent woman that isn't afraid to step on some toes in order to change the world. I discuss with people on a daily basis, I am not afraid to offend people with honest answers and I can get furious when someone is plain ignorant. A few weeks ago I was told that feminism is overrated because men and women are already equal. When I asked that guy how 20% less payment for the same work, less job opportunities and only tiny chances to get into a leading position are a definition of "equal" he just looked at me with that typical "Oh my God, she is one of THOSE women"-look. 

I was surprised. People expect me to be weird, nerdy, indoorsy and rude. They do not expect me to be a feminist. I thought about how i could change that. How can I let my style reflect my political views without loosing the frills, the skirts and the glitter? Then I realized: I don't have to change a thing. I wear what I love, no matter what. And that's exactly what feminism is about. It is about choices. Want to be a business woman? Great! A housewife? Great? A teacher? Great! A physisicst? Great! A Riot Girl? Great! a wall flower? Great! 
There is no correct style for a feminist except for the one you personally feel comfortable in. Feminism is about breaking up gender stereotypes, we shouldn't start constructing new ones by creating a certain form of uniformity. We are all different while being all the same. That is truly great!

So I'm going to keep the glitter and all the black because that is who I am. A victorian goth. A Quaintrelle. A "feminin" woman. A feminist.


How do you stand on feminism?
Have a great day,
The Countess

Wednesday, 16 May 2012

Photoshoots

I haven't done a photoshoot for nearly a year now and gosh, I miss it! I love to dress up and put a huge amount of make-up on in order to get pictures taken. I am not very good with artsy stuff like drawing so dolling up is my form of being creative. 
I really need to ask one of my best friends if she would like to go outside with me and take some nice new pictures. That would be awesome. (How about it, Imke?^^)

Well, to get over my want for new photos, I'll go and show you some of the old ones.








Have a great day!

The Countess

Tuesday, 8 May 2012

The Story of a Pair of Shoes. And donating blood.

So, I had really good plans for today: I only have one class of Uni on Tuesdays (I know, right? Sometimes life just loves me!) and it's basically in the middle of the night. 8:00 am. Okay, okay, I am exaggerating... but I have to get up in the middle of the night to be there (05:30 am) and after that one class I don't really have anything to do because my friends are all at Uni and I am a lazy shit and don't have a real job ( I tutor kids on Wednesdays and Fridays). So I decided to do something good for society and my bank account and donate blood. Normally, I do it for free at the Red Cross but I missed the last date because occasionally I do have Uni so I went to the University clinic in Bonn where they give you 25 €. 

Normally. 

Normally doesn't seem to work that good for me though. After going to Cologne central station after Uni and eat a way too early lunch at 10:30 to be fit for losing half a litre of blood and after going to the Uni clinic which was a trip that took me over a hour to get there, after nearly getting lost at the friggin' clinic grounds and after preparing myself to not get a panic attack when they come up with those huge needles they didn't want my blood. 

Let me repead that: They. Didn't. Want. My. Blood. They didn't even test me for asiderosis ( the deficiency of iron in the blood). They asked me which asthma sprays I use, discussed for a while whether or nor not I was a suited donour and that was it. 
I was a little perplex. As I already said I do have donated blood before (3 times) and my medicine had never been a problem. I was afraid that maybe the Red Cross had made a mistake those times and that my blood wasn't suitable for transfusions so I simply asked why it was a problem that I use those sprays. The lady on the counter gave me a quite annoyed look and said: "Well, we aren't the Red Cross, we give the blood to very ill patients, there mustn't be anything in there."

Oh really?

What do you think does the Red Cross do with the blood? Sell it to occult sects? Give it to My Chemical Romance so that they don't have to youse paint in their photo shoots anymore? Paint walls with it?
Or maaaaybe they give it to "very ill" people who have lost a lot of blood? Well, no, that idea is far of!

Don't get me wrong. I am not pissed because I couldn't donate and didn't get the money, I am pissed that I used my free time to get there and do something good and they treat me like an idiot. The counter lady was annoyed the whole bloody time! I tought my question was a valid one, I should know why my blood isn't good for transfusions, shouldn't I? Argh!

So I went back. I took the bus to Bonn central station and then remembered that there are no train connections to my home town from there, only to Cologne. Therefore, I decided to walk through the city and do some window shopping because on the other side of the city I could take a metro to the city next to mine and from there I could easily get back home. 
Long things short, I suck at window shopping, I always buy stuff.

I have been looking for a decent pair of flat shoes for weeks now. I am not exactly a fan of shoes without heels, I mean where is the point in wearing them? On the other hand, I have to do quite a bit of walking on some days of Uni and I still have problems with my right metatarsal ( or rather the tiny extra knuckle that is next to it and that shouldn't be there. I am a mutant...) since January so heels are not always an option. 
Unfortunatly, I haven't seen any nice shoes, neither high nor flat, during the last weeks. I don't like mainstream shoes but getting and overpriced pair of gothic brand shoes isn't really worth the money as I "only" needed flat shoes. 
Luckily, I wasn't allowed to donate blood and luckily I was pissed and wanted to cheer myself up because I found the perfect pair of shoes. At H&M. Seriously. I try not to buy at those kind of chains of stores because I do not like the conditions under which they produce their products. The workers are often minors and underpaid. Urgh! On the other hand, I cannot afford to buy my basics at my favourite gothic store where I know where everything comes from, so...

Well, back to topic. 
I found them.
They are perfect.
I think I am a little in love with them.
Here they are.

Patent-leather goodness with ribbon shoe laces

And a wannabe plateau
 Aren't they just awesome?
The correct answer is yes.

I also had another lucky finding. A black agate ring with a diamond pattern. I got it at Bioux Brigitte for less than 2€ which is really cheap. Did I mention that I love semi-precious stones? Well, i do.

Ihad to take about 100000 photos in order to get two decent ones






Did you have any lucky findings in the last time? Or are you more the organized and structured shoppers?

Have a great evening, 

The Countess

Wednesday, 18 April 2012

Jewelry supplies

Today I got some new crafting supplies in the mail. I ordered them about four weeks ago but as they come from Hong Kong that is not really a long shipping time. The products are really nice, I'm very happy with the quality and I have already sooo many ideas what to do with them. 




I got 12 glass pendants, 2 red pendants, 4 golden bases, 3 silver charms and 3 bronze charms. I immediately started to glue the red stones to one of the charms and to a base of a ring that I still had lying around.







I'm sooo excited to wear this combination for the first time, I think it adds a lot of elegance to a look because those two pieces remind me of old victorian jewelry.


My favourite piece of the whole bunch

Aaaaand some more


I want to make charms with people I admire such as Elizabeth I., Oscar Wilde or Marie Antoinette.

Have a great day, 

The Countess

Tuesday, 17 April 2012

Jewelry making

One of the things I like to do spend my time with is crafting so a year ago I started making my own jewelry. I usually buy my supplies at internet shops such as Etsy or Dawanda, it is way cheaper to buy the supplies and then make your own unique jeelry than buying it at a shop. I get to spend my time with being creative and in the end I have some nice new accessoires, how perfect is that?
Well, enough of the talking, pic spam:


The small one is going to be a brooch soon.



My pet name starts with a T

The whole bunch together

Hogwarts <3

We're all mad here

How do you like them? Do you make your own jewelry or like to craft in general?

Have a great day,
The Countess